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[amidstsnow]

[look at this finely dressed deer in the headlights. this is the face of a man who's clearly trying hard at something. and while he's still new to much of the technology here, that isn't the problem. (even if the typo in his own name might suggest otherwise.)

he looks like he might turn this off after all, and maybe he's regretting that he didn't go with the texted word, but then he takes a breath and pushes forward.]

I would like to address those out there who are fathers. Or anyone who might have experience with raising a child. Sons, especially.

[a long pause...a man with as much pride as jin zixuan surely finds it hard to ask for help. but he reminds himself of his sole reason, and suddenly it all rushes out.]

How does one...form bonds with them? What activities do they enjoy? What should you talk about? Do you try to be their friend?

How do you inquire about their [his expression twists.] chroma?

Any advice would be appreciated.

[please make him father of the year, it would mean so much.]

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[amidstsnow]

Do you really think so?

[that jin ling is like him. he doesn't take it as an insult, it makes him happy to think that there are things that jin ling naturally share. it's like a part of him has lived on. maybe even a part of him never actually leaves him.

spelling it out would be helpful, bless you wen qing. he draws in a breath. he's still mastering cooking. sparring sounds more promising, even if jin ling's at an age where he's clearly mastered the basics. that might even make it easier.]

My father did some of it, yes. [a pause.] He also had other interests.

[sterilize]

( she does — her smile says as much, warm and level and serene. it's odd, the traits life chooses to put in your children. like compressing jin zixuan down until all his good parts are concentrated into one smaller, better child.

she does wonder, what kind of traits her children would've had, if she ever had any. )

Ah.

( a jin reputation proceeds him — many people know many things about jin guangshan's "other interests." there must've been a respectable man in there somewhere, if all his good managed to make zixuan.

on second thought, maybe he's just his mother's son. )

In that case ... Perhaps it's not my place to say as much. ( she hums, thoughtfully. but she doesn't really give a fuck about niceness anymore, least of all to jin guangshan, who's only real benefit to her has been his part in making her current lover. ) But I believe every child should learn from the mistakes of their father, and strive to do better. Do you know what I mean?

[amidstsnow]

You can always speak freely with me, Lady Wen.

[is he a little pink in the cheeks, he just might be. but he also listens, thinking about her words for a moment before lowering his head, soft smile on his lips.]

It's something to keep in mind, for the benefit of those I hold dear. My pride won't be hurt by Jin Ling being a better man than I am either.

[sterilize]

I don't worry much about your pride.

( perhaps she otherwise might've — but she's learned enough about jin zixuan here in prisma to see what a great father he has the potential to be. unhindered by pride, but possibly effected by ... what should we stay? self doubt? the stubbornness of jin ling? )

What I mean to say is, learn from the things your father did or didn't do, and then make yourself better. For Jin Ling's sake.

[amidstsnow]

I thought...

I thought this was a good first step in that direction.

[his father would've come to him directly. just not to ask him anything, but to tell him.]

I approached it the wrong way. This time.

[because he does not intend to give up.]