un: phoenixevolution

[manufactured]

Sometimes the world burns and it's something to be remedied; it's something to be fixed, to be patched up and smoothed over, and you go back to forgetting that it was ever burning to begin with.

And sometimes the world burns, and that's just the state of things. If it's not your new normal, it becomes your generalized normal rather quickly. It's not the end of things, it's just places you no longer go and precautions you become accustomed to taking. Adapt. Overcome. Evolve.

Things are settling again, for now. We'll see if it stays that way or if the scales continue to tip. But while I don't take pleasure in all that's been happening lately, I can't say I haven't missed being part of a world setting itself on fire, either.

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[manufactured]

I don't know if I'd say my world is more unfortunate, per se. It's currently experiencing change that the world as a whole may not want, but ultimately will prove to have been necessary; I entirely believe that much to be true.

I admit, however, that those particular circumstances are ones that I've survived for a rather long time now. Perhaps it's something that I'm not certain what to do without, by now.

[fuckinghysterical]

if the world doesn't want the change, why do you think it's necessary? i'm not discounting your stance, necessarily, i'm just trying to understand.

i think i understand a little bit about growing accustomed to certain circumstances, though. i'll admit certain part of this world being so different can be difficult to adjust to. but is it so bad to learn to adjust?

[manufactured]

I've found that the world doesn't always want what's best for it. It's fairly uncomplicated, but difficult to have the means to do anything about.

I'm currently adjusting the best I can to this place, and I see nothing wrong with adapting to it. I'm doing what I can in that regard. But there's something to be said for the familiar as well.

[fuckinghysterical]

i suppose so. i'm not really certain if there's one thing that's best for the entire world, though.

this place has it's problems, but it's better than what i'm familiar with. though i guess it does still feel like there's a part of me missing? is it similar for you as well?

[manufactured]

More or less, at this point. I won't deny that this is objectively better than what I'm used to as well. But we're defined at least in part by the worlds we came from, I'd think.

[fuckinghysterical]

for better or worse, i guess. you can never fully adapt into something else, can you?

[manufactured]

I don't think it's likely, no. Not without becoming something else entirely from what you were.

[fuckinghysterical]

i think even if you manage that, there's always some piece from before that will always linger around. i've tried to become something else before. it didn't really take.

[manufactured]

For what reason did you try that? If you don't mind my asking.

[fuckinghysterical]

[There was no way in hell she was telling the whole story of that. But perhaps an extremely simplified version would work?]

i thought it'd be easier to deal with the world if i were something else, for as silly as it sounds.

[manufactured]

I'm not particularly interested in judging anyone's reasons. But no, that does make sense, as much as anything that anyone does makes sense.

[fuckinghysterical]

i'm glad it makes sense to you, at least. [Because thinking back on it, a lot of it didn't make sense to her - her mental was not in a good place, back then.]

have you ever tried to become something else?

[manufactured]

I have, yes. Multiple times.

[fuckinghysterical]

didn't take?

[manufactured]

It did, actually. But I found it wasn't enough.

[fuckinghysterical]

really? if that's the case, isn't there a possibility that all the changes in the world wouldn't be enough to get what you're after?

[manufactured]

It's a possibility that I've considered, and not one that I've dismissed altogether. But it's not something I can give up on, either.

[fuckinghysterical]

i envy your persistence at least. hopefully you can get whatever it is you're after eventually.