text; un: xiaoxingchen

[mingyues]

[ xiao xingchen is not someone who feels the urge to ask questions often. not of others, and even less so of strangers. for this, however, he'll make an exception, even if the words are hard to parse. ]

I have been thinking
The people that we are in this place, the people we become —
Is there a chance in this world for those who are destined to commit evil?
Or is it futile to expect that anything will change when we return to our worlds?

And if it is futile then... does anything we do here matter?

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[foolishjustice]

Many of my victims were truly vile people, anyway. Unfortunately, some had merely angered the wrong person. And even among the genuine villains, some had innocent relatives who suffered for their deaths.

I think it's important to be aware of one's shortcomings. After all, if one person could manipulate you, it's a weakness you should address so that others don't take advantage of it, as well.

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[mingyues]

I guess that is a level of comfort, I do not believe killing evil is wrong. Evil left unattended festers and corrupts.
Mine were all innocent.

Is it wrong to trust too much? I always trusted people to tell me the truth and not lie, and felt confident enough that even if they did lie, I would know it instinctively.

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[foolishjustice]

The problem comes when evil and innocent people are connected. One of the people here is the daughter of someone I feel no sympathy for, and has suffered greatly for his sudden death.

Trust is...I've found it to be a balancing act. Trust freely, and people will take advantage of you. But if you don't trust at all, you may miss opportunities for help when you need it. I'm still working on breaking some bad habits, but I think it's best to be cautious, but also allow people chances to prove themselves to you.

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[mingyues]

I see. Thank you for your advice.

I just
I do not know how to change myself. To stop trusting freely, to stop wanting to help others and do good
And yet I feel hopeless and unworthy of helping others.
I
I have meditated on the matter and hoped that others here may hold answers like yours.

I feel as if trusting others is part of trusting myself, trusting my judgement. My ability to discern, to know good from evil. But it seems I really thought too highly of myself.