text; un: xiaoxingchen

[mingyues]

[ xiao xingchen is not someone who feels the urge to ask questions often. not of others, and even less so of strangers. for this, however, he'll make an exception, even if the words are hard to parse. ]

I have been thinking
The people that we are in this place, the people we become —
Is there a chance in this world for those who are destined to commit evil?
Or is it futile to expect that anything will change when we return to our worlds?

And if it is futile then... does anything we do here matter?

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[mingyues]

Shino...
I will not stop doing good in this place. No matter what but I
I do not want to get deceived again, and I do not want to do evil under the disguise of being righteous.

All signs seem to point as if there is only one destiny where I am from. Separate realities, different paths but still the same ending. There are some things that may cut too deep to forgive, I do not know. I want to forgive, I want to be forgiven but that does not mean absolution of my crimes.


I do not feel much like myself these few days. Apologies.

[inuko]

You're allowed to not feel like yourself when you're dealing with things. I... The only person you are is yourself. You can forgive. You can do that. What anyone else does is theirs to decide, but either you want to forgive, or you don't. Being forgiven by anyone else shouldn't determine how, when, or why you forgive anyone or anything else, in my opinion.

You don't have to apologise for anything to me. You haven't done anything to me.

[mingyues]

Thank you for the words, I will reflect on them. But I
I want to forgive.
I have forgiven.
I can only move forward now.

[inuko]

Good. Keep moving forward. You're not moving alone.

[mingyues]

Thank you.
For your words and
For

Just. Thank you.

[inuko]

You're welcome.

Next shift, I'll treat you to a post-shift meal.

[mingyues]

That is very thoughtful
Thank you.