text, un: bellabelle

[doreimi]

You know...at one point I would've made a post like this anonymously. Not because I'm ashamed or anything, exactly, but because sometimes you just want to talk about things without your name attached, you know? So that it's not really about you, just about the advice you're looking for. Or because you don't want people to look at you differently after they hear about it.

I guess it's because it's been so hot lately that it got me thinking about it. And also because of Cordis, a little. Sometimes I get wings for Cordis, and then all of a sudden my wardrobe gets pretty limited when it comes to...that. But anyway.

Really what I wanted to ask is —

For people who have scars, how do you think about them? Like are they a part of your identity now, or do they still bother you? Do they feel wrong when you look at them? And — if you are okay with them, did you do something to make yourself more okay with them? Or are you just kind of...never going to be okay with them, no matter what?

I have some. I think they're ugly, and hard to look at, and I try to keep them covered up so that they won't bother people who might see them. I guess really what I'm wondering is whether that's a feeling that's ever likely to change.

It's just something that's been on my mind more and more lately, is all.

Comments

[doreimi]

Oh, gosh. You were bitten by a wolf? That must've been really serious, are you okay?

[lumberlady]

if husband no save i, then no okay...

thank you for concern. i is from mountain village so is just possible thing...

but scar from animal is not scary when compare to scar from human so i think i is fortunate.

[doreimi]

Oh...I guess I can understand that, yeah. I'm glad your husband was there to take care of you.

It must be a pretty big change for you, huh, going from a mountain village to a place like this, right?

[lumberlady]

i is most glad, yes.

is much hard, but i here for over one year now, so i is some more comfortable now. i think other person also have same problem becoming comfortable because of home world difference.

is you same?

[doreimi]

It's been almost a year for me, too. Next month, I think. Which is pretty strange! I remember feeling really disoriented when I first got here, and I don't anymore.

I like it better here, though. Or — what I mean is, I'd rather be here than back at home, honestly.

[lumberlady]

one year is decent time for changing i think. is bad to have to change in way like this, but.

if you is liking here more than home world... then is praying you is able to stay.

possible if LUNAR SCIENTIA discover way to send MOONBLESSED home on purpose can also use to keep MOONBLESSED here?

[doreimi]

I think that'd be awfully nice, really, but...well, I don't think I'll be here forever.

I just hope I'm the last one here, you know? I'd rather be the one left behind than have to leave behind someone who'll miss me.

[lumberlady]

no?

what if can choose? even if like this place more, you have duty at home? fate?

[doreimi]

Well...it's more like my friends have things to do at home. They have lives to live and things to accomplish! So I want them to get to go home someday and do that. I just...won't get to join them.

But that's okay. If they're not here, then I don't really want to be, either. I could go back home and be okay with what happens next.

[lumberlady]

is... possible rude to ask. no need to answer.






is dead?

[doreimi]

Oh, it's okay! I don't usually blurt it out because it sometimes bothers people, but I'm used to it by now.

Yup, I died, and so now I'm a ghost.

[lumberlady]

i have met before, in LUNATIA now.

you is feel like ghost here? or... is real ghost in you 's world?

[doreimi]

It's a little complicated! I'm...more alive than I USED to be, but I'm still a little bit ghost! I can turn invisible and walk through walls and stuff, sometimes. Not like I was back home, but still a little bit.

I don't really know what it is, but it's not just normal being alive, that's for sure.

[lumberlady]

yes i understand complicated... because i no understand.

LITTLE BIT GHOST...

so home is... full ghost?

[doreimi]

Yup, you've got it! Full ghost at home, less ghost...here.

You know, it does sound kind of crazy when I put it like that...

[lumberlady]

yes is sounding some crazy, but.

most in LUNATIA sounding at least some crazy so is alright??