text, un: bellabelle

[doreimi]

You know...at one point I would've made a post like this anonymously. Not because I'm ashamed or anything, exactly, but because sometimes you just want to talk about things without your name attached, you know? So that it's not really about you, just about the advice you're looking for. Or because you don't want people to look at you differently after they hear about it.

I guess it's because it's been so hot lately that it got me thinking about it. And also because of Cordis, a little. Sometimes I get wings for Cordis, and then all of a sudden my wardrobe gets pretty limited when it comes to...that. But anyway.

Really what I wanted to ask is —

For people who have scars, how do you think about them? Like are they a part of your identity now, or do they still bother you? Do they feel wrong when you look at them? And — if you are okay with them, did you do something to make yourself more okay with them? Or are you just kind of...never going to be okay with them, no matter what?

I have some. I think they're ugly, and hard to look at, and I try to keep them covered up so that they won't bother people who might see them. I guess really what I'm wondering is whether that's a feeling that's ever likely to change.

It's just something that's been on my mind more and more lately, is all.

Comments

[teaserving]

reimi's a smart girl
i dont have to do shit

[grilletto]

yeah but just because someone's smart
doesn't mean they know about it??
what the fuck, she's a lady

[teaserving]

ladies can be fisted too

[grilletto]

YEAH I KNOW THAT
BUT YOU DON'T FUCKING TALK ABOUT IT
HOLY SHIT

[teaserving]

i almost forgot how easily flustered you can get

[grilletto]

hey look
there's just some stuff that you don't talk about in public ??
this is probably one of them

[teaserving]

who's gonna arrest me

[grilletto]

I DIDN'T SAY IT WAS ILLEGAL YOU ASS

[teaserving]

then i can do what i want

[grilletto]

NO
not in front of reimi
what the hell
stop??

[teaserving]

your crushing is showing

[grilletto]

yeah so what
she already knows

[teaserving]

i just mean you have a clear bias and basically you're saying i can talk abut this in front of anyone else

[grilletto]

oh fuck
well i mean you probably shouldn't talk about it in front of other ladies too
i figured that was a given or something
i can maybe think of one girl you could say this shit to

[teaserving]

ok but why ladies exactly
are you being chivalrous huh
do we need to protect precious lady feelings

[grilletto]

YEAH SOMETIMES WE DO
IT'S RESPECTFUL
i mean mostly respectful
if they wanna talk about it first then that's a different thing

[teaserving]

ok gentleman expert i'll remember that while also remembering your wandering hands

[grilletto]

OH COME ON THAT WAS ONE TIME
unless you heard something different
no one said anything right??

[teaserving]

SHOULD have i heard about it from someone else?

[grilletto]

NO??? I JUST WANTED TO BE SURE
CHRIST
I DON'T TOUCH EVERYONE I MEET

[teaserving]

i didnt say that
but now im wondering

[grilletto]

I DON'T??
I ONLY TOUCH THE PEOPLE WHO WANT ME TO TOUCH THEM
FUCK