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[doreimi]

You know...at one point I would've made a post like this anonymously. Not because I'm ashamed or anything, exactly, but because sometimes you just want to talk about things without your name attached, you know? So that it's not really about you, just about the advice you're looking for. Or because you don't want people to look at you differently after they hear about it.

I guess it's because it's been so hot lately that it got me thinking about it. And also because of Cordis, a little. Sometimes I get wings for Cordis, and then all of a sudden my wardrobe gets pretty limited when it comes to...that. But anyway.

Really what I wanted to ask is —

For people who have scars, how do you think about them? Like are they a part of your identity now, or do they still bother you? Do they feel wrong when you look at them? And — if you are okay with them, did you do something to make yourself more okay with them? Or are you just kind of...never going to be okay with them, no matter what?

I have some. I think they're ugly, and hard to look at, and I try to keep them covered up so that they won't bother people who might see them. I guess really what I'm wondering is whether that's a feeling that's ever likely to change.

It's just something that's been on my mind more and more lately, is all.

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[bolderfell]

I see.

No way to do that, is there. Even without reminders, we have our memories.

[doreimi]

And I hate to say it, but in a place like this, that brings people in from all over...

I mean, there's always the CHANCE.

[bolderfell]

[...]

What would you do? What would you want to happen?

[doreimi]

Oh, I know what would happen. I have — WE have a plan.

He's not going to hurt anybody else ever again, I'll make sure of that.

[bolderfell]

[Therion suddenly feels fairly lucky he got off with forced-but-paid labor after wronging this one.]

That's the spirit. Guess you won't need a knife hidden under the counter at your cafe, then.

[doreimi]

I don't like knives.

Did you put one there?

[bolderfell]

No. Never struck me as the kind of place anybody would need one before now. Fine with me if you don't want one.

[doreimi]

I don't. I mean, cooking and cutting things up is one thing, but keeping something like that around as a weapon...

No. No, thanks.

[bolderfell]

Yeah. I get it.