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[doreimi]

You know...at one point I would've made a post like this anonymously. Not because I'm ashamed or anything, exactly, but because sometimes you just want to talk about things without your name attached, you know? So that it's not really about you, just about the advice you're looking for. Or because you don't want people to look at you differently after they hear about it.

I guess it's because it's been so hot lately that it got me thinking about it. And also because of Cordis, a little. Sometimes I get wings for Cordis, and then all of a sudden my wardrobe gets pretty limited when it comes to...that. But anyway.

Really what I wanted to ask is —

For people who have scars, how do you think about them? Like are they a part of your identity now, or do they still bother you? Do they feel wrong when you look at them? And — if you are okay with them, did you do something to make yourself more okay with them? Or are you just kind of...never going to be okay with them, no matter what?

I have some. I think they're ugly, and hard to look at, and I try to keep them covered up so that they won't bother people who might see them. I guess really what I'm wondering is whether that's a feeling that's ever likely to change.

It's just something that's been on my mind more and more lately, is all.

Comments

[penpoint]

Look how well it all turned out, though.

Besides, where's the fun in that?

[doreimi]

You're so terrible! You can't just say "well, it turned out fine" like that's an excuse for being reckless!

Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh you give me such a headache sometimes, Rohan-chan!!

[penpoint]

What I'm reading is 'Good job, Rohan-chan, I'm proud of you'.

It's not like I was intentionally being reckless. [ usually ] Things are going to always happen, and at least I'm able to deal with them now.

[doreimi]

I'm always proud of you, that's never changed. The two things aren't mutually exclusive!

You're right, though. You've really grown up a lot...and even if there's always a part of me that'll feel responsible for you, I know deep down that you can take care of yourself. Even without me.

[penpoint]

[ somehow different when Reimi actually says it and it's not just him being -- he's going to use his one semi-sweet thing to say today on this: ]

I'd rather not be, though. Without you, I mean.

[doreimi]

[Well, well, well. Look how far Mr. "I'm Definitely Not Going To Miss You Or Anything" has come. And with nary a Koichi-kun in sight, this time.]

You will be, someday. And when that happens, you'll be okay. But you already know that, and...to be honest, that's your guardian angel talking, not your girlfriend.

I don't want to be without you, either. So don't leave me alone, okay?

[penpoint]

I know I'll be okay, Reimi-chan. That's not really what I mean --

[ Hmm ]

I won't. I mean, I have nowhere else to be right now, as it is, too.

[doreimi]

You wouldn't be you if you weren't going to end up okay, in the end. :)

I know what you meant. It's just...you know. We're like Orihime and Hikoboshi, except here it's Tanabata every day.

[penpoint]

Then I guess I'll hope for no rain.