text, un: bellabelle

[doreimi]

You know...at one point I would've made a post like this anonymously. Not because I'm ashamed or anything, exactly, but because sometimes you just want to talk about things without your name attached, you know? So that it's not really about you, just about the advice you're looking for. Or because you don't want people to look at you differently after they hear about it.

I guess it's because it's been so hot lately that it got me thinking about it. And also because of Cordis, a little. Sometimes I get wings for Cordis, and then all of a sudden my wardrobe gets pretty limited when it comes to...that. But anyway.

Really what I wanted to ask is —

For people who have scars, how do you think about them? Like are they a part of your identity now, or do they still bother you? Do they feel wrong when you look at them? And — if you are okay with them, did you do something to make yourself more okay with them? Or are you just kind of...never going to be okay with them, no matter what?

I have some. I think they're ugly, and hard to look at, and I try to keep them covered up so that they won't bother people who might see them. I guess really what I'm wondering is whether that's a feeling that's ever likely to change.

It's just something that's been on my mind more and more lately, is all.

Comments

[teaserving]

eh he said we'd get to it but you know how it turned out

i think its fine so long as you dont walk away without any regrets
but dont go into it thinking its gonna be magical either
just
be honest with each other
that's the best thing you can do

[doreimi]

To tell you the truth I always kind of figured it'd be me and my boyfriend fooling around in the back of a car or in someone's room at a party, like in the movies or something. Not exactly very creative, I know.

No candlelit romance or anything, but also probably not waiting around to get married first, either.