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[levampere]

Bonjour. I have a question for you all, if you'll indulge me.

How many of you here are immortal? Whether it be by natural means or otherwise. How do you feel about your immortality?

You don't need to tell me how or why you are, I'm simply curious. I myself have lived for 500 years, so I'm looking for kindred spirits, one might say.

Of course if you're not immortal and you know someone who is, I'd be glad to hear that as well. This platform was made to share opinions, correct? I'd enjoy having everyone's different perspectives.

All the best,
Comte de Saint-Germain

[ It's... It's not a letter but he's from the 19th century so. There you go. ]

Comments

[inuko]

they arent feeling alone
and what kind of selfishness is it to tell others they have to keep living just because i decided i would
ill always cherish them theyre family
but keeping a memory alive when memories arent forever either
i dont think its enough
i think its easier to face death while theyre still living than to face living when theyre all gone
but its not my choice to force people to keep living when theyre at their limit
or its at least wrong to make them live no matter the cost to them

[ because technically, via murasame, he can do that. he has done that. he refuses to keep doing this, blindly. with the way he worries over things rio started saying about sousuke... ]

[levampere]

[ in b4 "I was totally joking haha" because he wasn't joking.... ]

You're correct. You should never force a life onto someone who does not want it. They must be willing, and they must understand the repercussions of such a choice. It's not for everyone, nor should it be.

But you shouldn't assume that memories are not forever. When you live this long, what you choose to hold dear to you is vital. Perhaps, thanks to their memory, you'll help someone you wouldn't have otherwise> This stranger could go on to help others, and in time, a nation is born from a simple wish shared from those who have long passed on.

It is no surprise you should find it easier. Dying will always seem easier than living, I'm afraid. But if you die, with you dies the lasting impressions your friends will have left on you, and their mark in the world would be that much closer to fading to obscurity. Even if you become the only person who knew them, would you wish to see them forgotten, rather than live on?

[inuko]

[ uh this all sounds horrible to an eighteen year old with problems with loneliness, sir, what's he supposed to do with this information that sounds like "suffer alone for hundreds of years carrying their memories simply so one person in the world knows they ever lived or died at all." ]

Memories get forgotten, get taken away, go fuzzy. Anyway, that's what I meant, not the whole... false immortality of memory. Can you guarantee everything you remember is correct? Not messed with by anyone or anything else? That you remember things right, and haven't already forgotten things, because when you forget how do you know you've forgotten?

How is living without any of the people I care about better because I can remember them than not? Fading into obscurity... does it matter if they're remembered by a world who never knew them? Why do those memories matter enough to say, stay alive, because if you don't, no one will ever know anything about the people you loved? No one does anyway! What are you supposed to do, find more people to love and have leave you and then be carrying around those memories too?!

[levampere]

[ yeah, St. Germain might be too old for this conversation..... Where's Leonardo when you need them. ]

Yes. I have an exceedingly good memory.

[ Despite him conveniently "forgetting" things every now and then. ]

I can see I've made you upset. I apologize, as that wasn't my intent. Still, I highly doubt you have such fickle friends that they'd wish you misery after their deaths. Would living to honor their memory until you found another purpose be so abhorrent to you? Is there no worth in your life, without them?

[inuko]

[ you're too old, immortal grandpa man! ]

I'm only alive because of them. What purpose am I going to find that holds more weight than being here to make sure they weren't alone?

[levampere]

[ He really is... someone please come pick up this grandpa ]

Perhaps this is something you should discuss with them, dark though the subject it may be. Their opinions matter deeply to you, so it's only reasonable that you consult those things with them.

[inuko]

[ Call in the grandpa guidance team...! ]

I would love to if any of them were here.

[levampere]

They could appear still. What will you do in the meantime?

[ grandpa can't just leave you to those thoughts... ]

[inuko]

[ ............................................................... don't ask him hard questions, dammit! ]

Look for them on the moons.

[ Shino you can't live on the moons it's just not Done, son. He does make it seem like that's half what he intends. The other half is "do what I can to get us back home" but as that means moonlacing he's not sure what he can actively do that won't have him going just a wee bit crazy in the process. He can't sit still, he's too stupidly healthy these days to want to do anything of the sort! ]

[levampere]

[ He's good at that. ]

And otherwise? When you are not searching?

[ St. Germain really is gonna have to keep an eye out for this poor child. ]

[inuko]

I dunno. I'll figure it out.

[ He'll eat fod and probably still try to visit the moons as often as he can. Hence why he'll end up in the ship crash some few weeks later. ]

[levampere]

Then I wish you luck in that endeavor. Should you need any help, feel free to reach out to me.

I'm not always so dour, I promise.

[inuko]

I'll think about it.

... Thanks.