three 💕 text ( un: inaban )

[dereban]

so.
i know a lot of people have done ads like this in the past but i kind of want to get shitposty w/ mine bc that's how i roll www

bad news: i'm running low on chroma, i need a moonlacing partner, send help.

hi!
i'm inaba, 17 (almost 18!! next month!!!! soon i will be Legal™ and it'll be great)
interested in fellow people who can shoot the shit
likes video games, computers, just tech in general tbh
and also mobage.

bonus points: 1) if you're from japan, bonus BONUS points if you're from yokohama 2) you can WALK TF to my apartment, i'm dying 3) if you're from the future and you have flying cars in your future 4) i actually met you already?

pls make sure your account is verified and i have the right to refuse anybody

in exchange for moonlacing i can offer for the low, low price of FREE:
1) help with computers and tech in general but esp programming
2) creative memes involving you and your friends!
3) writing. i will write shit for you. i'm mostly versed in professional article writing, but i accept bullying ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i think that's all. reply asap, ty. much appreciated.

( ooc: As a heads up: if any moonlacing action threads decide to get more involved than handholding/hugging, I'd like to have those moved outside of this post, thank you! )

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[dereban]

[ It was admittedly, something that kind of came out of left field, but it just made her feel a little more awkward about her own feelings. Like what right did she have to being this torn up over things when other people could have been in worse situations?

She can't help but sigh a little overdramatically, her gaze still not meeting is. ]

Maybe. . . but I just don't get it.

[ There's something torn up in the way she speaks. ]

How can it be so easy for people to just-- do this-- if they don't know if the person is bad or not?

[scarsnstripes]

[...Hm...

It's understandable, really. Public displays of affection, affection with strangers-- those were all pretty strange, even Atsushi could agree. But at the same time... it was nice. It helped others. Wasn't that a good thing?]

I think it's just... nice, being close to people. Moonlacing feels good, though I'd never do anything intimate with someone I didn't know well. More than that... If I have the ability to help someone out, I feel like I should do what I can.

[He squeezes her hand lightly.]

And you're not a bad person, Inaba-chan. You're my friend.

[dereban]

"Help someone out", huh. You remind me of someone else with those words. . .

[ She trails off slightly, sounding a little melancholic even as a smile plays upon her lips. But there's something sad about it, even if holding hands like this is nice. ]

But I wouldn't call myself a good person. Or even someone who deserves to be a friend-- ha. I wonder if I'm backsliding again this way.

[scarsnstripes]

...And you remind me of someone else with those words.

[he looks a little sad at her comments. Why would she say that...?]

Why don't you think you deserve to be a friend?

[dereban]

I guess you could say I'm a little dark. Mm, well... I used to be, before I changed. But then I came here and I'm beginning to be dark again. I guess that's just what happens when you're all alone for a few months and you don't have anything to cling onto.

[scarsnstripes]

[Hm....]

If someone being 'a little dark' meant they couldn't be someone's friend, I'd have almost no friends.

[Listen, even he'd acknowledge a lot of his friends were Messed Up People. But he was too, and he'd defend those friends until he's breathless. He holds up their clasped hands, smiling a little wryly.]

If you don't have anything to cling onto, you can cling to me. And there's other people who care about you here too, aren't there?

[dereban]

. . . I don't know if I should pity you or not when you put it that way.

[ It's a bit of a surprising statement for sure - hearing someone easily admit that their friends were 'a little dark', or even leaning that way. And out of her own friend group back home, she was the darkest of them all, although Iori was similar in that aspect, too.

That's what happens when you befriend people who have problems. Traumas.

But then Atsushi says those words and-- ]

I can't- [ Or is she just trying to convince herself that she shouldn't? Her mind reels a bit, recalling words that she was told.

"It's not your fault."

"Maybe you should trust that he'd understand if he's that kinda person." ] There is, but. . .

I can't just- cling onto someone like that- become so dependent on someone like that, even if I want to.

[scarsnstripes]

Why? I think all my friends are pretty good ones.

[Listen, sometimes most of your friends are traumatized, former murders or both, it's fine--

But he does fall quiet at her response, squeezing her hand again as she explains. He wishes she didn't seem so... resistant, to the idea that she deserved companionship.

But he could understand it too, a little.]

I'm not talking about dependency, exactly... but is it because you value your independence? Or because you feel like you don't deserve letting people to help you?

[dereban]

Not because they're good or bad. That isn't why I said that.

[ She pouts a little bit, knitting her brows in a bit of frustration, but she isn't necessarily angry at him. ]

It's- [ There's a bit of hesitation in her voice there, as if she doesn't want to say it. But she soon sighs and shakes her head, finally responding. ] A little bit of both, I guess.