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[dereban]

so, once again, iiiiit's your local prismanon asking for some advice!

it's almost the end of the year, huh? like, ten months deep. i've been here for like, what? almost half a year now? that's kind of shocking to be honest. and it makes me wonder. who here misses their homes? but more so than that...

we're getting 'older' here, right? like, if your birthday passes, you count that as a +1 to your age, right?

so, the real question i have here is simple: if you start getting older than all of your friends back home, isn't it kind of sad? you spend all your time here, getting to know people, maybe making new friends. but you're aging. you don't know if your world's time is moving. like... i'm the only one from my world here, tbh. it's lonely! ( ´•̥̥̥ω•̥̥̥` )

the other thing ig i wanted to ask is...

if the person you care about the most is back home, how do you deal with that? how can you just bear waiting to figure out how to get home -- when you've been in this world for so long that you've almost given up hope on the idea that maybe, one day, they'll show up here. or even that you might actually go back?

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[dereban]

would you want them to be here?

[bratworth]

I would not.

( It's not entirely true, but it's a better sounding answer than 'I don't know'. )

[dereban]

then i guess you should consider yourself lucky that they aren't here

[bratworth]

( That doesn't sit right with him somehow. )

Even if it's a selfish answer?

[dereban]

even so.

having a selfish answer isn't necessarily always a bad thing, you know.

[bratworth]

Isn't it?

[dereban]

of course not.

sometimes you have to be.

[bratworth]

What makes you say that?

[dereban]

if you're not selfish sometimes, that's no way to live.

it means you're constantly doing things for other people, when you also have to do things to take care of yourself.

[bratworth]

What I want doesn't matter.

[dereban]

and why not?

[bratworth]

( He'd never admit to this so directly if he wasn't anonymous, but he is, and he wears that anonymity like a shield. )

Because I am undeserving.

[dereban]

why do you believe that?

[bratworth]

Because it is the truth.

[dereban]

sometimes when people talk about themselves they tend to see things worse (or better, in some cases) than how they actually are.
how exactly is it the truth?

did you do something bad?

[bratworth]

Yes, I am aware.

And yes, I did.

[dereban]

that's... unfortunate ig

[bratworth]

Indeed. You understand now why I must repent for my actions?

[dereban]

i do, a little.

not entirely ofc, but a little.

[bratworth]

Does it clarify matters if I tell you that the person that I wronged is the person I cared about the most?