text, un: nevercrywolf

[starmark]

i've been trying to figure out what people even use this "internet" thing for and it seems like most people just write whatever they want on it, right? that's what it seems like. i saw a bunch of questions and some ads and some introductions.

there's an observatory here apparently. they let you go there and look at the stars at night if you want to. i guess the stars would be different here than they would on earth or wherever else. they have different constellations too which i guess makes sense. different star patterns and different cultural basis for deciding what shapes they look like to begin with.

every place is different. they all do things differently. around here you're supposed to hold hands or hug or fuck and maybe here that's no different than taking your shoes off when you go in the house or saying itadakimasu before you eat. i guess you're supposed to just get used to that. living here means that's just what you're stuck with.

i ran out of cigarettes.

so is that what people do when they decide they need money? just go on here and write "hey i'm out of cash anybody want to moonlace"? like it's a fucking bathroom wall or something.

yeah, i know, or get a job. last i checked you can't get a job in the middle of the night on no notice.

cigarettes. candles. incense. maybe someone who knows how to do calligraphy or draw. guess that's a shopping list that'll have to wait until morning.


[OOC: Please assume that this was posted at some utterly stupid hour in the middle of the night!]

Comments

[antipatheia]

point made
then again your refusal to accept someone’s number could just indicate that you have other preferences

but if you have to ask the how, it likely doesn’t apply to you
future it is, then
dead or alive
?

[starmark]

even if that's how it was it's nobody's fucking business to begin with

are you asking if i'm dead
no
i'm not dead

[antipatheia]

[ that was an interesting response, he's just going to tuck that away for later ]

of course, i never said it was
i'm not asking, merely making a statement

but i was asking if you died, yes
i've found there are quite a few of us that have been brought back from the dead
it's been interesting to hear about it, to say the least
i was hoping to get a good story from you too but no matter

do you have any other questions?

[starmark]

you said "us"
so i'm guessing that means you're dead
i'm not going to ask about it

but i guess there is something i'd wonder about that

does your girl know you're dead
is that something you tell people

as far as i can tell there's no way to tell around here
what happened to you before i mean
so do you tell people
does it even matter

[antipatheia]

i didn't expect you to

as for whether she knows i'm dead or not
i'm fairly certain she does, it's not as if i've kept it a closely guarded secret.

it matters to some people
but in the long run it doesn't really matter, no
i feel very much alive.
i have no scars, i'm very much in once piece and alive
so i'm not sure that i count as truly dead at this point
so long as i stay here, i remain alive

but to clarify, she's a girl that i sleep with
she's not my girl
though i can see how my saying regular girl might indicate as much.

[starmark]

sure
also she's your girl for this conversation
because saying "the girl" sounds weird and i'm not calling her "the girl you sleep with"
so don't read a whole lot into it
it's just an easier way of saying which girl i'm talking about

so how have you been thinking about it
is this a new life for you
or is it the same one and there was just a hitch in the middle where you died

[antipatheia]

saying it that way is acceptable then
it's something of a touchy subject
so i wanted to be clear regarding our arrangement

i thought at first this was a chance for a fresh start
a new opportunity to achieve what i couldn't in life
now in a way i think i see it as both
though i think the whole experience has made me a little more prone to focus on self-preservation

[starmark]

what makes it so touchy
are you the kind of person who can't be tied down or something
i mean i really don't care
it's not like it's any of my business
but it sounds like it bothers you

[antipatheia]

you're right
i'm not the sort for commitment
and having someone get the wrong idea
well
it certainly has the potential to narrow my options, doesn't it?