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[ xiao xingchen is not someone who feels the urge to ask questions often. not of others, and even less so of strangers. for this, however, he'll make an exception, even if the words are hard to parse. ]

I have been thinking
The people that we are in this place, the people we become —
Is there a chance in this world for those who are destined to commit evil?
Or is it futile to expect that anything will change when we return to our worlds?

And if it is futile then... does anything we do here matter?

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It is about balance. If you lose an eye because of me, the only adequate restitution is to give you my own.

How do you know that's balance? Who's telling you that?

Balance, society, all of that's made up. We put those rules in there to have order.

But giving an eye because someone lost one for balance is bullshit. You do it because you've got the compassion or you don't.

It is the right thing to do. If you wrong someone you make amends, atone.But some wounds are too deep.

So if you know that, then why going in circles?

You can't do the right thing if you're dead.

Because the answer is not enough. None of this feels right.

We cannot die here, even if we wished to.

It sounds like you don't want an answer.

You just want to be punished.

I want to fix this.

...No, but it would be deserved.

See you just contradicted yourself.

You want to fix it, but you want to be punished. You want to help, but you think you shouldn't.

That kind of thinking never gets anyone anywhere. It's a waste.

[ he trusts erik enough to ramble like this, because he trusts the other to know better, to be smart and wiser and know the world that broke xiao xingchen. ]

Then how do I stop? How do I forget? How do I become sure of myself again?