text, un: bellabelle

[doreimi]

You know...at one point I would've made a post like this anonymously. Not because I'm ashamed or anything, exactly, but because sometimes you just want to talk about things without your name attached, you know? So that it's not really about you, just about the advice you're looking for. Or because you don't want people to look at you differently after they hear about it.

I guess it's because it's been so hot lately that it got me thinking about it. And also because of Cordis, a little. Sometimes I get wings for Cordis, and then all of a sudden my wardrobe gets pretty limited when it comes to...that. But anyway.

Really what I wanted to ask is —

For people who have scars, how do you think about them? Like are they a part of your identity now, or do they still bother you? Do they feel wrong when you look at them? And — if you are okay with them, did you do something to make yourself more okay with them? Or are you just kind of...never going to be okay with them, no matter what?

I have some. I think they're ugly, and hard to look at, and I try to keep them covered up so that they won't bother people who might see them. I guess really what I'm wondering is whether that's a feeling that's ever likely to change.

It's just something that's been on my mind more and more lately, is all.

Comments

[machizumo]

Sounds complicated.

[ That's... all he's got for that. That's not demon shit? So is it human shit? Another break in the barrier doling out more weird powers? Yeesh. ]

I mean when I say needles it's like BIG ONES so I got these coin sized marks and I tell people it was really mean shitty wasps from far off somewhere. Then I can't tell em the name of the bugs and they can't go and look it up.

Never died. Not for lack of trying.

[grilletto]

if i'm being honest
yours sounds just as complicated
i'm beginning to think that no one they brought here had a normal life
or at least not a calm one

glad you didn't die though, i guess
not that it matters here because i know a few that were dead before and came back
i was ready to hook you up with some of them to talk about it or something
but i guess you don't need help there

[machizumo]

Nah. Miraculously recovering from death is Urameshi's shtick not mine.
When he shows up I'll let you know. Just in case your support group needs a most obnoxious member.

sorry i'm late, gmail ate some of my tags

[grilletto]

nah we already have one of those
he's just not here right now
pros and cons to that but it can't be helped
besides it's something i'm part of anyway
probably should have been part of it but i've had some luck

so i'm gonna assume you're not a stand user then?
you've got something else going on?

an eternal pox on gmail

[machizumo]

I stand all the time. Do I come off as really lazy or something?

[grilletto]

okay that tells me everything i need to know
i'm not trying to say you're lazy or anything
hell, i've never seen you so it'd be a little messed up to assume

so now i have to ask
are you lazy?

[machizumo]

Of course not! I'll have you know I'm extremely hard-working!

I just don't know what a stand user is or what anybody's supposed to assume it is.