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[foolishjustice]

I have a question, that...you'll probably understand my reasons for posting anonymously once you finish reading.

The local culture is very open and laid back about sexual interest. It's different as hell from my own home, where men who show sexual attraction are viewed as disgusting perverts and assumed to be dangerous, while people don't even fucking think about women having an interest in sex beyond wanting to have children. Some of the posts I've seen here would get everyone involved labeled sexual deviants for the shit they talk about in the open.

My question is, how do people adapt to it? I'm here doing my damn best to keep my mind out of the gutter because I've been taught thinking about anyone you don't want to date like that is disrespectful as hell and fucking creepy, but then I turn around and see people openly asking for hookups or rating each other's asses, and instead of people calling that shit skeevy, they either go along with it or treat it like a funny joke.

I know it's not prudishness, believe-you-fucking-me, my life would be easier if I was just naturally shy or reserved or whatever. It's an extreme form of culture shock, and I wish I didn't end up feeling like a dick constantly over the kinds of mental images I get from both the way people act in public around here and some of the things the prismals hand out as fucking party favors.

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[panthered]

I like those kinds of places, too. Not having people paying attention to you is nice, but the atmosphere, too. They're kind of a win-win in your situation. Plus it's easier to get to know the people there.

But... the difference is that you obviously feel bad about it.

That's the thing about real assholes. They don't ever regret anything. No matter who they hurt, or how much they hurt them. All they care about is themselves.

[foolishjustice]

The food and drinks tend to be better, too. The busier a place is, the more likely they resort to pre-packaged ingredients to keep up with the demand. A small neighborhood cafe is much more likely to use freshly roasted beans than a major chain.

I guess I...haven't really thought about it in those terms. Only one person who's hurt me has really felt bad about how it turned out as far as I know, and what happened between us was just because we fucked up on communicating and he didn't realize how much I cared.

But now that I am thinking about it, there was something recently. I'm Cordis, and someone I met during the play thought I smelled really nice, even after I told her what the pheromones could do to someone. It made me pretty uncomfortable, but once she realized it was bothering me, she apologized. It felt a lot better to know she was only doing it because she didn't realize how it was making me feel.

[panthered]

That's true! The place I visited the most at home always had the freshest coffee. And it smelled so good... even if you don't like to drink coffee that smell is just too good. You never really get that at chain places.

It sounds like you've had a lot of jerks in your life. Someone who actually cares cares about you being hurt, too, even if it means they have to swallow their pride and apologize.

[foolishjustice]

Most chain places also exclusively use percolators, which always turn out shit coffee. It turns bitter and loses all the individuality of the blend, so it doesn't even make a difference what beans you use.

I've...mostly known people who either looked down at me or saw me as just a pretty face to obsess over. It's only pretty recently that I've known anyone who gave a shit about me.

[panthered]

Honestly that's probably why I only have coffee at one place anymore. Anywhere else I can drink juice or something!

Aw... well, there's that at least, right? You have them now.

Everything can change if you have even one person in your corner. I know that firsthand.

[foolishjustice]

I'm pretty spoiled to a specific place, too, but it was unfortunately too far out of my way to stop at when I had work. I know some other good coffee places, though, so I've managed.

Having support has helped a little, but...it takes time to undo the damage being alone for so long did. Especially since I've had relatives say some pretty shitty things, and even convince me my own mother didn't care.

There are also some things I'm not sure ever can change.