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[foolishjustice]

I have a question, that...you'll probably understand my reasons for posting anonymously once you finish reading.

The local culture is very open and laid back about sexual interest. It's different as hell from my own home, where men who show sexual attraction are viewed as disgusting perverts and assumed to be dangerous, while people don't even fucking think about women having an interest in sex beyond wanting to have children. Some of the posts I've seen here would get everyone involved labeled sexual deviants for the shit they talk about in the open.

My question is, how do people adapt to it? I'm here doing my damn best to keep my mind out of the gutter because I've been taught thinking about anyone you don't want to date like that is disrespectful as hell and fucking creepy, but then I turn around and see people openly asking for hookups or rating each other's asses, and instead of people calling that shit skeevy, they either go along with it or treat it like a funny joke.

I know it's not prudishness, believe-you-fucking-me, my life would be easier if I was just naturally shy or reserved or whatever. It's an extreme form of culture shock, and I wish I didn't end up feeling like a dick constantly over the kinds of mental images I get from both the way people act in public around here and some of the things the prismals hand out as fucking party favors.

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[fridgeninja]

I know.

I didn't set out to keep them secret, but it was... hard to explain Ebihara-san. And we were in the middle of things that seemed more important than dating. When I realized that they'd never come up...

There isn't a good excuse.

About the rest of it... I'll make sure to talk to Chie. Count on it.

The other place...

I do and I don't.

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[dj_jiraiya]

That's fair, I'm not gonna push. It's a tough subject all around but... when you're ready, talk to me.

Okay?

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[fridgeninja]

It's hard to say, but... I'm a little afraid that if I talk about it, people will see me differently.

But I guess that's happening already.

We should probably talk about it in person.

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[dj_jiraiya]

Partner, you already saw my Shadow. You saw ALL of our Shadows and you stuck by us.

You think think that'd change things between us now?

Okay, just let me know when.

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[fridgeninja]

I saw yours, but even I've never seen my own.

Let's do it tomorrow. If I'm going to try to clean up my act, it's no good to procrastinate.

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[dj_jiraiya]

My point still stands, Partner. Whatever you wanna talk about, it's not gonna change anything between us. I promise.

Okay. My place or yours?

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[fridgeninja]

Mine? There's that tree out in the backyard. It's a peaceful place for talking about things.

((tossing up a log now))

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[dj_jiraiya]

Alright, see you tomorrow.