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[onerous]

What is it that keeps you living? Why? What makes it worth it to you?

[That’s, uh. That’s it. That’s the message. There’s no follow-up explanation or anything.

She’s just curious and doesn’t seem to see how alarming a question like that out of the blue might be]

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[im_gonna_heal_u]

Goals in life.

[ A question like that sounds suspicious and a little scary, but Konoka wanted to stand her ground. ]

Life is kinda what you make it, so... I wanna make stuff and help others make their stuff (by keeping them alive). When I'm dead I don't get to experience what life has to offer, and that sucks.

[onerous]

You want to live so you can help people?

But that's true. There's always something new happening. But is that enough?

[im_gonna_heal_u]

Of course I do!

I don't know if it's enough for all people. Some live just for that, others are fine with the same things. To be honest, questions like that feel a little scary given what you've opened up with.

Are you okay?

[onerous]

Oh. I guess it is a little scary, huh? I didn't really think of that.

I was just curious, that's all. People don't like to talk about these sorts of things. When you do, people start getting worried or try to stop you, so the topics never get broached.

But I think they're sort of important to talk about and figure out. And you can't accept these sorts of inevitable things if they're not talked about, so people just remain scared and worried about it. A sort of self-fulfilling prophecy or never ending cycle, you know>

I'm okay, to really answer your question.

I've been told people can't die forever here, so what happens in a situation like that, where death becomes a little more meaningless? That's all I was interested in.

[im_gonna_heal_u]

Huh. I... never thought of it that way.

[ Konoka tended not to think of things like that. ]

Eventually, we grow old, or a disease proves too strong. But you're right in that we don't really think about those things until they're right on us. We just assume that unless we're already dying that we don't have one foot close to the door.

But... I can't really answer what you ask. Even if death is fleeting, all the approaches to it aren't the least bit pleasant.

[onerous]

It's a strange subject. Even funerals are strange. Some places they're very somber affairs, full of crying and lamenting. In other places, they're huge parties meant to celebrate the life they left behind.

I guess it's still not a pleasant subject, though. Sorry. I feel like I worried a lot of people. Maybe it would've been best not to ask at all.

[im_gonna_heal_u]

Mmmm, no. I wouldn't say you shouldn't ask it. It's a fair question.

I guess I'm a worrywart when it comes to keeping people alive.

[onerous]

That makes it sound like you definitely thought I was wanting to die or something. [She huffs a little, faintly amused]

I'm not looking for it, for the record. I promised someone I would live, so I don't really plan on it anytime soon.

[im_gonna_heal_u]

Oh um. Sorry?

[ Oops. She might have barreled into saying something she shouldn't have... ]

It's good that you remember them. What's their name?

[onerous]

It's nothing to apologize for. I just feel a little embarrassed making people worry.

Her name is Hisoka. She owns an antique shop and cafe that I help her with. She's very kind and warm, and cares deeply for people. When I move in, she gave up her bedroom for me and moved into a different one-- She's that sort of person.

[im_gonna_heal_u]

Wow, she sounds like a really nice person.

I hope you get to meet her again one day.

[ There's no telling how that will pan out with Prisma, but the well wishes for friends was a universal thing Konoka believed in. ]

[onerous]

I do too. I don't want to wish she'll come here, because that seems a little too selfish, but... I think she'd find this sort of place fascinating. She'd make a lot of friends easily, and I doubt she'd have a problem with the moonlacing.

Sometimes I just try to think what she'd do or say to help me through things. Though I think most of it would be more just 'be nice and make friends, Yuri-chan.'

[im_gonna_heal_u]

lol

It's probably not bad advice. It's what I try to do anyway.

[onerous]

Does it work for you? You seem like the type to have many, many friends.

[im_gonna_heal_u]

It's worked out for me so far!

My personality's a bit more outgoing, but I'm sure with the right flavor of kindness I think you could figure something out for yourself too!