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[levampere]

Bonjour. I have a question for you all, if you'll indulge me.

How many of you here are immortal? Whether it be by natural means or otherwise. How do you feel about your immortality?

You don't need to tell me how or why you are, I'm simply curious. I myself have lived for 500 years, so I'm looking for kindred spirits, one might say.

Of course if you're not immortal and you know someone who is, I'd be glad to hear that as well. This platform was made to share opinions, correct? I'd enjoy having everyone's different perspectives.

All the best,
Comte de Saint-Germain

[ It's... It's not a letter but he's from the 19th century so. There you go. ]

Comments

[inuko]

what about technical immortality until a curse catches up with you
is that a thing where you're from

[levampere]

I'm afraid I haven't heard of anything like that, we don't have curses in my world.
But there are those who cannot be killed for several hundred years until their condition becomes such that their lives come to an end.
Technical immortality may be the correct word for that situation.

[inuko]

i dont know that we have many curses but individual ayakashi i suppose curse and regions do get cursed if you ignore local gods and their laws so thats about the same nevermind
anyway i cant be killed
im technically immortal for the last five years and going onward forever

[ until murasame ends up consuming him in probably some brutal, horrific way: hence the whole cursed bit. but it's fine! he and murasame are fine!!! ]

[levampere]

Ah, I see. So you've been cursed by some kind of demon.

[ He has like two Japanese friends, he recognizes some of the words. ]

Five years is going to feel much shorter soon, I promise you. But if you need help adjusting, feel free to turn to me if you need. I doubt we have the same kind of affliction, but I've helped several others come to terms with their new, extended lives. I understand it can be difficult at first.

[inuko]

yes and no but thats one way of seeing it i guess

thats a thing im not sure i care abotu much much longer
it seems much scarier living on when no one around you does too
i mean being alive is nice im not saying it isnt
but it only seems nice as long as you have someone with you by your side
whats the point of being immortal and alone
sounds scary

[ shino, you realise anyone can read this? no? ... alas... but these are thoughts he usually doesn't share, because how can he? neither of his most important people are immortal, and one's half dog souled, and more complicated than he even knows. ]

1/2

[levampere]

[ Lucky for Shino, that's the kind of thing Leonardo says on the regular so he's not even a little surprised to hear it. ]

I will not lie to you. It is scary.
This will not be easy to read, and I understand if you simply choose to dismiss me, but know that I understand your fear very well.

Knowing you will outlive those around you is the worst feeling there is.
But what it means is you must treasure the time you spend with them. Cherish those moments and commit them to your heart and your memory, and savor every chance you get to see them succeed.
And when they pass, if you keep their memory alive and live for them, then their legacy will remain in the world long after their passing. As long as you live, they will live within you.

[levampere]

[ I wish he wasn't like this, but he is. ]

Or, if that does not work, simply find a way to make your friends immortal as well. Even extending their lives by a few hundred years could help you all feel less alone.

[inuko]

they arent feeling alone
and what kind of selfishness is it to tell others they have to keep living just because i decided i would
ill always cherish them theyre family
but keeping a memory alive when memories arent forever either
i dont think its enough
i think its easier to face death while theyre still living than to face living when theyre all gone
but its not my choice to force people to keep living when theyre at their limit
or its at least wrong to make them live no matter the cost to them

[ because technically, via murasame, he can do that. he has done that. he refuses to keep doing this, blindly. with the way he worries over things rio started saying about sousuke... ]

[levampere]

[ in b4 "I was totally joking haha" because he wasn't joking.... ]

You're correct. You should never force a life onto someone who does not want it. They must be willing, and they must understand the repercussions of such a choice. It's not for everyone, nor should it be.

But you shouldn't assume that memories are not forever. When you live this long, what you choose to hold dear to you is vital. Perhaps, thanks to their memory, you'll help someone you wouldn't have otherwise> This stranger could go on to help others, and in time, a nation is born from a simple wish shared from those who have long passed on.

It is no surprise you should find it easier. Dying will always seem easier than living, I'm afraid. But if you die, with you dies the lasting impressions your friends will have left on you, and their mark in the world would be that much closer to fading to obscurity. Even if you become the only person who knew them, would you wish to see them forgotten, rather than live on?

[inuko]

[ uh this all sounds horrible to an eighteen year old with problems with loneliness, sir, what's he supposed to do with this information that sounds like "suffer alone for hundreds of years carrying their memories simply so one person in the world knows they ever lived or died at all." ]

Memories get forgotten, get taken away, go fuzzy. Anyway, that's what I meant, not the whole... false immortality of memory. Can you guarantee everything you remember is correct? Not messed with by anyone or anything else? That you remember things right, and haven't already forgotten things, because when you forget how do you know you've forgotten?

How is living without any of the people I care about better because I can remember them than not? Fading into obscurity... does it matter if they're remembered by a world who never knew them? Why do those memories matter enough to say, stay alive, because if you don't, no one will ever know anything about the people you loved? No one does anyway! What are you supposed to do, find more people to love and have leave you and then be carrying around those memories too?!

[levampere]

[ yeah, St. Germain might be too old for this conversation..... Where's Leonardo when you need them. ]

Yes. I have an exceedingly good memory.

[ Despite him conveniently "forgetting" things every now and then. ]

I can see I've made you upset. I apologize, as that wasn't my intent. Still, I highly doubt you have such fickle friends that they'd wish you misery after their deaths. Would living to honor their memory until you found another purpose be so abhorrent to you? Is there no worth in your life, without them?

[inuko]

[ you're too old, immortal grandpa man! ]

I'm only alive because of them. What purpose am I going to find that holds more weight than being here to make sure they weren't alone?

[levampere]

[ He really is... someone please come pick up this grandpa ]

Perhaps this is something you should discuss with them, dark though the subject it may be. Their opinions matter deeply to you, so it's only reasonable that you consult those things with them.

[inuko]

[ Call in the grandpa guidance team...! ]

I would love to if any of them were here.

[levampere]

They could appear still. What will you do in the meantime?

[ grandpa can't just leave you to those thoughts... ]

[inuko]

[ ............................................................... don't ask him hard questions, dammit! ]

Look for them on the moons.

[ Shino you can't live on the moons it's just not Done, son. He does make it seem like that's half what he intends. The other half is "do what I can to get us back home" but as that means moonlacing he's not sure what he can actively do that won't have him going just a wee bit crazy in the process. He can't sit still, he's too stupidly healthy these days to want to do anything of the sort! ]

[levampere]

[ He's good at that. ]

And otherwise? When you are not searching?

[ St. Germain really is gonna have to keep an eye out for this poor child. ]

[inuko]

I dunno. I'll figure it out.

[ He'll eat fod and probably still try to visit the moons as often as he can. Hence why he'll end up in the ship crash some few weeks later. ]

[levampere]

Then I wish you luck in that endeavor. Should you need any help, feel free to reach out to me.

I'm not always so dour, I promise.

[inuko]

I'll think about it.

... Thanks.