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[dereban]

so, once again, iiiiit's your local prismanon asking for some advice!

it's almost the end of the year, huh? like, ten months deep. i've been here for like, what? almost half a year now? that's kind of shocking to be honest. and it makes me wonder. who here misses their homes? but more so than that...

we're getting 'older' here, right? like, if your birthday passes, you count that as a +1 to your age, right?

so, the real question i have here is simple: if you start getting older than all of your friends back home, isn't it kind of sad? you spend all your time here, getting to know people, maybe making new friends. but you're aging. you don't know if your world's time is moving. like... i'm the only one from my world here, tbh. it's lonely! ( ´•̥̥̥ω•̥̥̥` )

the other thing ig i wanted to ask is...

if the person you care about the most is back home, how do you deal with that? how can you just bear waiting to figure out how to get home -- when you've been in this world for so long that you've almost given up hope on the idea that maybe, one day, they'll show up here. or even that you might actually go back?

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[trample]

If an opportunity ever presented itself, I am certain they would all change their tune - myself included. Until then, trying to make the most of my time here is my priority. But it's different for everyone.

Whatever do decide to do, don't do it because you've resigned yourself. Do it because you think it's the right thing to do. Even if it means being the one with an unpopular opinion.

[dereban]

maybe.

i don't do things because i've "given up". i'm not that kind of person. i don't give up. i choose what i want because i want to live my life as 'me' and not falter because of everyone else.

"you and I are the same" eren you are not a small anime girl

[trample]

Then you and I are the same. I'm quite glad to be able to say that. I hope, whoever you are, that you are able to find your way back home and stick it to everyone who's already given up.

[dereban]

'the same', huh
well, I definitely want to find a way back without losing my memories and find out the truth about how we got here.
I don't 100% buy the explanation we were given, after all

[trample]

Do you cherish your memories of here that much? I'm not sure I'd pass up a chance to go home if the only downside was that.

[dereban]

of course!

and i'm not 'passing' up a chance. people might think that's such a simple downside, but fuck that. if i'm going to go home, i'm going to keep everything i want! that's just my way!! i'm going to go home AND keep my memories. i won't accept anything less.

[trample]

Your way's the right way, I'd say. [ That rhymes. ] There aren't many here I consider myself close to, but the few that are I hope to never forget. Though I don't think I could ever tell them that in person.

[dereban]

ha.

same here, tbh. but the quantity doesn't matter to me. it's about the quality of your relationships that matters the most.

[trample]

And what few you have mean the world to you. I get it. Although I can't say any here are as precious to me as those I've known all my life back home, I will admit there are one or two that I'd give my all to protect.

Assuming we all eventually part, do you imagine you'll have any regrets?

[dereban]

of course. i'd do anything to protect that.

no.

i won't. if we have to leave, it'll be by my choice. and i'll find out a way to meet with all of them again.

[trample]

Well said. I feel like we would get along in person.

[dereban]

ha, really?

[trample]

Truly.

[dereban]

maybe you'd change your tune if you actually met me, though.

[trample]

With your attitude, I think such a meeting is inevitable. I look forward to it, even.

[dereban]

ha.

too bad we'd never know, since we're both anonymous.

un: erenyeager

[trample]

How about now?

[dereban]

well.

i guess i'd know now.

[ She's still staying anonymous, though! ]

[trample]

At least one of us does. I'm not sure why I bothered hiding my identity in the first place. Seems childish, in retrospect.

[dereban]

well, people hide their identities for various reasons.
for me, it's as simple as wanting to obscure things.

[trample]

Believe me, I know. But I don't think anything I said was particularly incriminating. So there's nothing to fear, really. If I were you, I think I would feel the same way.

[dereban]

i don't know.

maybe i didn't say anything necessarily bad, but that doesn't mean i want people to know it was me. even i have some things that i want to keep to myself, after all.

[trample]

Don't we all? I won't pry any further. Take care, whoever you are.