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prismatica2019-08-21 12:30 am
foolishjustice) wrote in prismatica2019-08-21 12:30 am
Entry tags:
- fate/: marie antoinette,
- granblue fantasy: jessica,
- hollow knight: grimm,
- hypnosis mic: gentaro yumeno,
- hypnosis mic: hifumi izanami,
- magi: titus alexius,
- metal gear: otacon,
- no more heroes: travis touchdown,
- original character: fish,
- persona 3: minako arisato,
- persona 4: chie satonaka,
- persona 4: rise kujikawa,
- persona 4: souji seta,
- persona 4: yosuke hanamura,
- persona 5: ann takamaki,
- persona 5: goro akechi,
- persona 5: ren amamiya,
- voltron: matt holt,
- voltron: pidge
Text - Anonymous
I have a question, that...you'll probably understand my reasons for posting anonymously once you finish reading.
The local culture is very open and laid back about sexual interest. It's different as hell from my own home, where men who show sexual attraction are viewed as disgusting perverts and assumed to be dangerous, while people don't even fucking think about women having an interest in sex beyond wanting to have children. Some of the posts I've seen here would get everyone involved labeled sexual deviants for the shit they talk about in the open.
My question is, how do people adapt to it? I'm here doing my damn best to keep my mind out of the gutter because I've been taught thinking about anyone you don't want to date like that is disrespectful as hell and fucking creepy, but then I turn around and see people openly asking for hookups or rating each other's asses, and instead of people calling that shit skeevy, they either go along with it or treat it like a funny joke.
I know it's not prudishness, believe-you-fucking-me, my life would be easier if I was just naturally shy or reserved or whatever. It's an extreme form of culture shock, and I wish I didn't end up feeling like a dick constantly over the kinds of mental images I get from both the way people act in public around here and some of the things the prismals hand out as fucking party favors.
The local culture is very open and laid back about sexual interest. It's different as hell from my own home, where men who show sexual attraction are viewed as disgusting perverts and assumed to be dangerous, while people don't even fucking think about women having an interest in sex beyond wanting to have children. Some of the posts I've seen here would get everyone involved labeled sexual deviants for the shit they talk about in the open.
My question is, how do people adapt to it? I'm here doing my damn best to keep my mind out of the gutter because I've been taught thinking about anyone you don't want to date like that is disrespectful as hell and fucking creepy, but then I turn around and see people openly asking for hookups or rating each other's asses, and instead of people calling that shit skeevy, they either go along with it or treat it like a funny joke.
I know it's not prudishness, believe-you-fucking-me, my life would be easier if I was just naturally shy or reserved or whatever. It's an extreme form of culture shock, and I wish I didn't end up feeling like a dick constantly over the kinds of mental images I get from both the way people act in public around here and some of the things the prismals hand out as fucking party favors.
Private
i can wait till ur done but think we could talk 4 a bit? i didnt kno u were in that place till now n i wanted to ask u sumthin about it
Private
No, I suppose I didn't.
Okay.
Private
Someone told me a bit about it and I'm not gonna pretend I know what you went through or anything like that but... You just seem so different now than back home.
Are you okay?
[There's a reason he's dropping the shorthand,]
Private
When I used to move between schools every year, I liked being able to be different in every place. To fit in, but also to be a different 'me' ...
So, some of it's that.
But, it's also true I still think about that place a lot. Even though it was just two months.
Private
It's just... I dunno, you got me worried, buddy. You were never so open with sort of thing before, and I'm not saying you're not allowed to or anything like that. It was just... a big change, I guess?
Not to mention you never dated anyone before, you know?
Private
But, I guess that just reinforces that I wasn't as open about it.
That part's because of the other place.
Private
[You can probably hear the frustrated whine.]
See? I thought we weren't gonna keep things from each other! Not that I really needed to know you were dating anyone, but still. :/
[He's not mad, but he doesn't like the idea of having secrets kept between best friends. Okay, he's technically got a secret of his own but he plans to tell Souji once he's worked through it himself first. Still, he takes a moment to calm down because that wasn't what he wanted to talk about really.]
Sorry. I guess I just don't get it, though? It's just... Chie and I were talking just a little bit ago, and she's worried too. I think she's more worried because she's the one dating you and she wants to be okay with you being open about sex. I just don't think she's as okay with it because she likes you too much. But that's more for her to talk to you about than me.
Bottom line, we're just worried and I don't wanna see you get hurt or anyone else get hurt for that matter.
[i.e.: Chie.]
Did you... wanna talk about it? The other place or anything like that?
Private
I didn't set out to keep them secret, but it was... hard to explain Ebihara-san. And we were in the middle of things that seemed more important than dating. When I realized that they'd never come up...
There isn't a good excuse.
About the rest of it... I'll make sure to talk to Chie. Count on it.
The other place...
I do and I don't.
Private
Okay?
Private
But I guess that's happening already.
We should probably talk about it in person.
Private
You think think that'd change things between us now?
Okay, just let me know when.
Private
Let's do it tomorrow. If I'm going to try to clean up my act, it's no good to procrastinate.
Private
Okay. My place or yours?
Private
((tossing up a log now))
Private