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[foolishjustice]

I have a question, that...you'll probably understand my reasons for posting anonymously once you finish reading.

The local culture is very open and laid back about sexual interest. It's different as hell from my own home, where men who show sexual attraction are viewed as disgusting perverts and assumed to be dangerous, while people don't even fucking think about women having an interest in sex beyond wanting to have children. Some of the posts I've seen here would get everyone involved labeled sexual deviants for the shit they talk about in the open.

My question is, how do people adapt to it? I'm here doing my damn best to keep my mind out of the gutter because I've been taught thinking about anyone you don't want to date like that is disrespectful as hell and fucking creepy, but then I turn around and see people openly asking for hookups or rating each other's asses, and instead of people calling that shit skeevy, they either go along with it or treat it like a funny joke.

I know it's not prudishness, believe-you-fucking-me, my life would be easier if I was just naturally shy or reserved or whatever. It's an extreme form of culture shock, and I wish I didn't end up feeling like a dick constantly over the kinds of mental images I get from both the way people act in public around here and some of the things the prismals hand out as fucking party favors.

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[foolishjustice]

What the fuck. It wasn't even an actual swimming trip?

[highsteaks]

Nope it was a picking up garbage on the mountain trip but he knew there was a stream to go swimming in so I guess that's why.

We pushed him and the other boys into the water and then our homeroom teacher barfed upstream and it got on them.

[Congratulations, Chie, any hope of true anonymity from your friends is pretty much nil at this point.]

[foolishjustice]

That's definitely an asshole thing to do. It sounds like he just wanted to convince you to go swimming so he could stare.

Did the other boys help with trying to pressure you into a bikini?

[highsteaks]

Not exactly but they didn't really try to stop him either they just sort of stood around awkwardly and pretended they weren't staring at us only they didn't even do that very well.

The worst part is that we even did put on those stupid swimsuits because the boys covered for us the night before and the guy who bought us suits was guilt-tripping us.

[foolishjustice]

It sounds like they at least needed some motivation to call him out.

And the asshole definitely deserved it.

[highsteaks]

Yeah he really did!!!

He can be a good friend sometimes but other times he is just the worst basically any time girls are involved he's a terrible influence on the kid who lives with his family and is probably the reason that kid is obsessed with scoring all the time.

And the worst part of all is that after we were in the dumb swimsuits he said we weren't hot yet because we were just kids or something like that but we were going to be soon that's when we pushed them in.

[foolishjustice]

It sounds like he needs to be made an example of so the kid he's being a bad influence on can see where that leads.

And what the hell was he even thinking, insulting someone after convincing them to wear something like that in the first place?

[highsteaks]

When girls are involved he NEVER thinks not ever.

And then he signed all of us girls up for the school festival beauty pageant and we couldn't back out because our new homeroom teacher we got after the first one died wasn't letting anyone it sucked.

We got him back by signing him up for the school festival drag queen pageant and the rest of the boys too because they were just letting him be that way again.

[foolishjustice]

Who the fuck doesn't let someone back out of a beauty pageant?

I've seen a lot of that tendency to ignore shit that needs to be called out, myself. People would rather let someone else get away with being an asshole than risk an argument.

[highsteaks]

Our school had the worst teachers in the world.

And yeah I've noticed that too.




Hey do u want to talk sometime when we're not anonymous I think u really get me.

[foolishjustice]

That sounds like it would be a good idea. Maybe find somewhere to meet? I'm not sure how to give you my username privately with us both being anonymous.

[highsteaks]

Yeah same.

Do u want to maybe meet at the new gym on level three or maybe that dragon place restaurant on level one it sounds pretty cool.

[foolishjustice]

I'm never one to turn down a food invitation. Meals taste better when you have company, anyway.

[highsteaks]

Yeah and since it's not Sanguis I won't be eating weird anymore.

Are u busy because I'm not we could go and meet there in an hour?

[foolishjustice]

Just going through replies to this.

How will I be able to tell who I'm looking for?

[highsteaks]

I'll wear a green jacket.

[foolishjustice]

Alright. I'll be wearing a blue sweatervest.

[dj_jiraiya]

ur awful at bein anon u kno

[No point in hiding his ID when he already knows who this one is.]

[highsteaks]

Shut up!!!!

[dj_jiraiya]

y?

ur the one tellin very specific stories n cmon u didnt have to omit the part where i didnt kno u guys couldnt back outta the pageant

i still dont think u shoulda pushed partner and kanji in w me either they didnt deserve it

ALSO trust me im NOT the reason teddie is the way he is im honestly not sure how it happened its weird??? so dont go tellin ppl its my fault when u dont know the whole story dude

[highsteaks]

I forgot about that part ok it's been months mostly I just remembered feeling like a side of beef and not in a good way that's why we pushed them at the stream the way all u boys were all looking at us made us feel bad not just u.

Look u knew Teddie before me and u still spend the most time with him and I guess I just assumed it was ur fault because ur always the one who gets weird about girls.

[dj_jiraiya]

dude partners got the best poker face i doubt he was look at u like that!! but ok ok im sry prolly shoulda said that alot earlier anyways

i mean... ok ya i guess i can see how but i rly didnt do anything! he reads like... tons of shoujo and watches romcoms w mom all the time so idk where else he coulda got all that--

(￣ヘ￣)

im not WEIRD! i just... look i didnt kno how to act ok but im tryin! u dont need 2 tell random ppl about stupid stuff i did almost a yr ago

[highsteaks]

They aren't a random person they're one of the few people I've met here who feels weird and awkward a lot here too ok ok u don't know what it's like for me ok ok trust me u don't.

[dj_jiraiya]

[There's a bit of a lull and maybe Chie thinks he just dropped the convo. But then:]

"i guess maybe it helps no one would want me"

u rly think i dont know how that feels?

[He switches the chat to private at this point and he drops the text speak.]

It's what my Shadow talked about, actually. That and some other stuff, but that was part of it. And I know my... weirdness and stuff means you think I'm actually all for this place but I'm NOT. It's... it's weird. It's really weird and awkward. I've hooked up with a couple people but it's not like we're dating and like that makes me feel like a sleezeball even though I know the others were okay with it and have these open relationships but like...

Well, yeah. So, I get it. Sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel like you were alone in this or something.

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[highsteaks]

[Yeah, she's dropping the anon now. He knows it's her anyway. And maybe she'll make some more visible effort at not doing so many run-on sentences and not shortening the word 'you.']

Oh.

It really is weird and awkward and I don't know how people do it, Yosuke, I don't know how anyone here just hooks up with people, especially strangers. I've only been with Souji and Hifumi and I've been in love with Souji for most of a YEAR and even with Hifumi I'd been good friends since I got here. We ended up finding each other when we were lost on the moon and we got picked up by the Prismals together and she's just been really important to me. And I still didn't kiss her until she turned into a really pretty dragon.

But then you hear about other people having crazy moons where they're just banging everyone they meet and they don't seem to have the problem and then you have to wonder if maybe you're the big prudish weirdo.

And sometimes I worry that Souji is going to... I dunno. Find people who're better than me. And spend more time with them. And I'll be lonely and left behind. I know he likes me back but there are a lot of really Special people here.

And we both know I'm not.